Teething and Tired

Julia is teething! I know that half the time a baby is upset parents immediately say their baby is teething. I've been guilty of it and apparently my daughter has been teething for 6 months and still no tooth. Well the past two days have been it - REAL TEETHING! The kind that has your 10 month old normally happy and tear free baby balling and screaming! The kind where you look at your baby's pink gums and see two swollen white tinted spots bulging like zits gone wild. The kind where you want to sink away in a dark room with no sound b/c all you've heard all day is shrills, cries, screams and bababababa as she gnaws on her own hand. I feel so sorry for her. She never cries and she has cried non-stop. Let's go ahead and add that she has unfortunately taken on a case of stranger anxiety and seperation anxiety. Maybe the pain of the swollen gums has kicked it in but today I set her down to use the bathroom and you would have thought I sat her on pins and needles. All of this crazy behavior the past two days has just got me thinking again,wanting to vent and letting the exhausting drive me into rant mode.

I know we are all supposed to be supermoms and for us SAHM we're supposed to be able to handle it b/c it's our job right? People in jobs out of the home can't just say they need help or quit at 4:15? Or can they? Yes they can so why can't we? When I was teaching if I needed help I asked another teacher or went to my principal. When I needed to leave early I took personal or sick time. When I had a no-good-horrible day, I knew that it would end at 3pm and I didn't have to see the kids again that day....and if it was really a horrible day I could take a personal day the next day. I sometimes envy the women that leave their house to go to work. Even on Julia's good days, I would like a little break (and if you're reading this saying that is what naps are for then you are obviously not a SAHM b/c we know naps are for mopping, ironing, showering, maybe working out, breathing...those things). Maybe one of those hour long lunches where I shoot the shit and don't have to worry about little hands pulling at my microwaved lasgne....ahhhh the little things. I know it sounds like I'm complaining and maybe I am a little but it's my blog and I can but I just think people view SAHM differently than they should. Unless you've done it you just have no idea what goes into it and it takes out of you. I do get to see my daughter take her first steps (2 steps yesterday in the splash pad - she's def a waterbaby), I get to make my own schedule  - second to Julia's, I get to have sweet hugs and play with her when she wants, I get to teach her interesting stuff and see the amazement in her eyes....yes I get to do all of those wonderful things but I also get looked down on if I say it's overwhelming or hard at times or I need a break from parenting for a few hours or a day...so judge me go ahead. I'm admitting I am not supermom nor I ever will be. I'm tired, exhausted and busy trying to balance SAHM and WAHM with an uncooperative little girl and a husband.